From a personal point of view, I wouldn't have been happy with one cap but would always have been happy with two. I never counted on getting to 80.
I was watching the Five Nations as a kid, I'm very fortunate to have been able to pull the red jersey on a few times, and now I'm able to assist the team, assist the young players coming through, and help the guys who do have the ambition to play more for Wales.
There is ways and means to vent, and sometimes they can be the wrong ways.
We don't want Welsh rugby to be seen as healthy or upbeat. If we think that, we could become complacent or stagnate.
Welsh rugby has done its dirty washing in public. It's nothing new. We're a tribal bunch. If warring parties want to sway public opinion, they do it in the public arena.
As individuals, we don't sometimes let ourselves enjoy things that we possibly should because of ways you want to be perceived, which is a silly thing as well.
