Anybody who carries the albatross of that teen-idol thing - well, people tend to look and say: 'There he is again. It's Fabian.' It's a very tough thing. Everybody wants to discount your talent because you have become so... I don't know... a god, if you will.

Thoroughbred racing is really my true passion. I'm living my dream.

All that stuff - 'teen idol' - that wasn't me.

I was always really proud of the fact that I had a very positive influence as a role model.

It's not that my father didn't love me, it's just that he wasn't capable of consistently being there. His mood swings were gigantic.